Saturday, December 30, 2006
was back from shower and i saw my screensaver on play.
the pic of us at macritchie.
was on my way to tuition and the bus pass`d by macritchie.
and we have yet to climb to the top and have a walk at the bridge.
i miss you tucking my hair behind my ears.
you`re a growing addiction i can`t deny
5:06 AM
1. Are you 'Yourself' when you arewith crush/boyfriend/girlfriend?
` yupz.
2. Love to you is..?
` simple yet complicated
3. Are you in love/or gonna be in love? How Long?
` yes. im in love with him. and i have a feeling that this love will never go away
4. Are you a Two-Timer or wanna be one?
` nahx. im contented with one
5. Your dream guy/babe..?
` him. he`s everything that i`ve ever dreamed of
6. Your Dressing/daily wear?
` depends on my mood
7. Are you ready for a serious relationship?
` definitely ; but it only applies to him. other than that. its ok la.
8. Are you happier single or in a relationship?
` in a relationship
9. A romantic destination with your special one?
` some laidback country with nice cooling weather and just walk down streets hand in hand. (:
10. Favourite spot/best features of your special one that you love the most?
` i simply love his nose. i love brushing my nose against his. (:
----------About Him/Her-------------
(First thing that pops up in your mind about him/her when "the word" is mention)
~Horoscope: he`s a taurus
~Babies: he wants 2
~Love: -shrugs-
~Sports: he loves running
~Character: tender loving with loads of patience
~Color: he`s always in black or white
~Sick: caught in the rain during bike lesson make him prone to fall sick
~Words said by him/her that you loved: quite a few
~Hate: nothing
~Fat: him pinching my tummy. ):
~Kiss: i`ll never kiss another cause im used to your lips
~Face: i love all faces of him, the angry him ; the smoking him ; the smiling him...
~Weakness: his short temper
~Waiting: him waiting for me at the void deck
-----------Last Words--------------
For Him/Her: without you ; i cant find the strength to be strong
About Yourself: im everything you`re not
Best Features: i love my sexy back. haas
Last Breath: i`ll use my last breath to tell you i love you
Sex: only for the one
The World: there`s nothing fair in this world
you`re a growing addiction i can`t deny
5:03 AM
1. Where were you 3 hours ago?
` in the living room. on the phone
2. Who are you in love with?
` he who stays 10 mins away from me. he who used to cycle over and meet me at playground. he who showered me with love
3. Have you ever eaten a crayon?
` you think im that crazy?
4. Is there anything pink within 10 feet of you?
` yeah! my piglets! (:
5. When is the last time you went to the mall?
` been awhile
6. When was the last time you saw the person u love?
` 17 december 2006
7. Does heartbreak really feel as bad as it sounds?
` no. it feel worse than whatever it sounds
8. When was the last time you drove out of town?
` me no license
9. Last movie you watched in the theatre?
` eragon! ((:
10. Are you hot?
` yupz. hear me sizzle. lolx.
11. What was the last thing you had to drink?
` hl milk!
12. What are you wearing right now?
` nothing. haas.
13. Do you wash your car or let the car wash you?
` i dont own a car for me to wash
14. Last food that you ate?
` yummylicious dinner by daddy
15. What were you doing last week at this time?
` in school,camp. probably not slping and playing games
16. Have you bought any clothing items in the last week?
` nahx. it has been a long time
17. When is the last time you ran?
` aye... i think during camp
18. What's the last sporting event you watched?
` soccer
19. What is your favorite animal?
` tie between pigs and dogs and horses
20. Your dream vacation?
` off at some remote island that has a great resort. able to tan relax swim spend sometime with myself and the one i love and and and i want SPA TREATMENT!!!
21. Last person's house you were in?
` my tuition kid`s place
22. Have you been in love?
` definitely.
23. Do you miss anyone right now?
` yupx.
24. Last time you drove a car?
` i dont drive
25.What are your plans for tonight?
` im meeting helen and carol!
26. Who is the last person you sent a friendster message to?
` i guess its gerard?
27. What is the next trip you are going to?
` kl, for the concert of my life
28. Ever go camping?
` yupz
29. Were you a honor roll student in school?
` never
30. What do you want to know about the future?
` i do not want to know a single thing. just wanna embrace the present
31. Are you wearing any perfume or cologne?
` no. at home wear for what
32. Are you due sometime this year for a doctor's visit?
` the year`s coming to and end soon
33. Whats your favorite song?
` a couple
34.Have you ever been searched by the cops?
` nahx. im a good girl.
35. Would you rather sleep with someone else, or alone?
` i wish i could slp in your arms each night
36. Chocolate to you is..
` an essential in my life
37.What are you listening to right now?
` babyface- someone to love
38. Do you collect anything?
` used to collect stamps and piggss.
39. What does your last text message say?
` you dont wanna know
40. Do you like hot sauce?
` yupx
41. Last time you took a shower?
` couple of hours ago
42. What is your heritage?
` german-chinese. haas.
43. Are you someone's best friend?
` yeah!
44. Are you rich?
` im rich with love from family and friends and hopefully you
45. Are you smart?
` i make witty comebacks. (:
you`re a growing addiction i can`t deny
4:34 AM
Friday, December 29, 2006
who am I gonna lean on
when times get rough?
who`s gonna make me smile
when thing goes wrong?
who`s gonna take your place?
there ain`t nobody better.
i do not want you in my life.
cause i NEED you in my life.
i miss sitting outside cathay next to you, watch you smoke before our movie.
you`re a growing addiction i can`t deny
3:03 PM
i guess the weather and the amt of bbq food i ate.
im now coughing like a mad woman.
i just cant get to slp. those shadows beneath my eyes are getting horrendous.
but i just cant get myself to slp.
just when i tot everything was gg the other way.
a call assured me. just a simple call to know if im fine.
that`s more than enough alr.
you will have no idea how much that means to me.
and yes. i miss talking on the phone with you.
thou after that call, the feeling i had towards this sunday went dwn a lil.
i still want to believe that we could spend nye tgt.
that is my only wish now.
you were my sense of direction. now without you. im lost.
you`re a growing addiction i can`t deny
3:38 AM
Thursday, December 28, 2006
oh wells. tuesday acc mummy dearest to chinatown and we sang.
haas. just the 2 of us. funny la. but glad to have spent the time with her.
soon it was home. mummy gotta leave for work again.
will only see her next month. and i`ll be gg kl next month! woohoo!
RAIN!!!! (:
so.. after much consideration i went dwn to pasir ris.
moo had chalet with her bf.
so i went dwn for bbq and some games and stayed for the night.
woke up the next day. went for lunch and it was tuition.
went home. washed up and i met my girls.
sighz. my hols are gonna be over soon.
and i really hate for school to start.
aint this nice? the glowing heart. haas.
one of the best thing in my life
she complained abt my eyes being so big.
and so. no more eyes for her.
much fun with the peeps.
full attendance! (:
signing off, yours truly. i know. retarded. but i dont care! >.<
you`re a growing addiction i can`t deny
10:18 PM
Tuesday, December 26, 2006
thousands and millions of thoughts running thru my mind.
different types of possibilities.
but none of them is positive.
i could feel my confident slipping away.
im afraid that one day whatever that is running thru my mind will come thru.
every single fear i have weakens me
and there`s no way that i`ll be strong again, without you.
i know im childish to be thinking this way
but you are the only one that i want and need in this life.
you`re a growing addiction i can`t deny
3:36 AM
Monday, December 25, 2006
MERRY KISSMAS PEEPS! (:
may you have a jolly one with loads of love!
you`re a growing addiction i can`t deny
10:34 PM
the 3 days of camp was not as bad as i thought.
at least there were familiar faces in my group.
so the 3 days were more bearable.
its hard to bond with every single person, but i tried.
-shrugs-
now all i hope is that i get into FOC / FOW
first night after bath was games playing with the small grp of peeps.
played till late ; forsake`d sleep
second day was more less like a zombie. haas.
slept rather early but still it aint enough slp for me.
>.<
3rd day was madness.
break camp at 11pm. it was really madness.
after that was dinner at cpf building.
woah! almost 12 hours since my last meal. haas.
ate a lil, chilled with the group and played games.
when it was time home, waited for fook ping and hui min.
so me and ivan just talked.
it has been long. haas.
reached home at 3am. and immediately knock`d out.
sunday was tuition and home for dinner.
and then tada! sher asked me out.
so i went out and chilled with them.
countdown by eating barchor mee. haas. those guys la.
nvm. failed attempt in finding a place to drink and sing.
so in the end, drinks from 7-11 and sat outside rp mrt.
played games, talked, slacked the whole night there.
when morning comes, was cheated into going tiong bahru market to eat breakfast.
go there also no carrot cake to eat.
haha. came home after breakfast.
super tired can!
was a good girl today. homed the whole day.
dinner with the family! mummy`s leaving tml.
that`s fast. but its good in a way too.
i dont want to hear her nag each time im out late. haas.
whatever la.
tml most prob chalet and bbq. hope i`ll have fun.
and and and. nye is coming!!! (:
you`re a growing addiction i can`t deny
9:39 PM
Thursday, December 21, 2006
madness. real madness. town is pouring with people.
the lights are real beautiful.
i love the xmas tree outside paragon.
i wanna walk in town hand in hand with you to look at the lights and take photos.
but i guess this wun be possible.
anyway met maneka aft my tuition to do some shopping.
had late dinner and shopped ard and did manage to get some stuffs.
however my xmas shopping still not complete yet.
saturday will be the day then.
great to spend some time with her. it has been long.
back home and its pre camp packing madness.
almost done. but still not done yet.
gotta forsake watching drama tonight and slp early.
):
wont be able to watch a single ep for the next 3 days.
raining season. confirm all indoor activities.
in the night. omg. i will just freeze to death. urgh!
anyway pls do not miss me for the next 3 days ya.
will be back soon. and pls fark creative. my mp3 really died on me!
URGH!!!
it feels so good to be msgin you again
it feels so good to see you name on my phone`s screen
it feels so good to have you on my mind all day long
it feels so good to know that nye is coming
nye. that`s all im looking forward to. <3
you`re a growing addiction i can`t deny
3:04 AM
Tuesday, December 19, 2006
been home alone almost the entire day.
daddy`s off to kl ; mei left for work early in the morning and she`s staying at granny`s tonight.
so here i am. lonesome individual. ):
daddy`s not around. no one to cook for me.
so i proudly made bee hoon soup in the late afternoon.
tot it could me my only meal of the day.
turn out aft tuition im hungry again. so bought some light snacks home.
the weather is really horrendous. even with the umbrella im still wet.
so what`s the point of having an umbrella?
home from tuition was really bad.
but i love walking in the rain. it just soothes me somehow.
clear my mind a lil. and now i hope that i wont fall sick. haas.
back to tp for project tml.
xianzation. hopefully i`ll not be late. and rmb to return the library book that is wayyyy overdue.
haas.
i miss mensa mee goreng. and design chicken chop.
hopefully i`ll have my lunch then. (:
was thinking thru stuff the entire night and today.
and well, i realised that life was never fair to anyone.
there isnt a need to fight for fairness cause it doesnt exist at all.
right?
you told me before that no matter what happens we have to overcome it tgt.
hand in hand.
so will you hold my hand and let me go through all this with you?
yi wei told me the other day that birthday wishes do come true.
and im glad that i believe it.
cause my wish came true. thou its just half of it.
i`ll contd to wait for the other half to come true.
you are all that i`ve wish for
you`re a growing addiction i can`t deny
1:49 AM
Monday, December 18, 2006
out for movie in the evening.
town was overly populated. but we still managed to get tickets for eragon.
(:
guess my luck aint that bad. haas.
been long since i watched movie. it was a nice one somemore!
was supposed to walk along town to look at the lights
but it was raining, so just bus`d home.
had a talk b4 gg home.
well, to me its like a huge weight been lifted from my shoulders.
no more wars fighting within me
can feel a lil calmer.
after all these while, i`ve learnt to be contented with what i have.
never ask for more. that`s how im gonna behave from now on.
im 9teen alr. gotta start thinking maturely alr.
but then i still wanna be the small kid to you.
you still owe me a lollipop ar! >.<
that hug felt good. the kiss was sweet.
i love the way you tuck my hair behind my ear.
i love the way you kiss my forehead.
i love the way you hold my hand.
i love the way you kiss my tear away.
i couldnt get enough of you. i start to miss you alr.
i want you to know that,
they say it takes a minute to find a special person, an hour to appreciate them, a day to love them, but an entire lifetime to forget them.
and my lifetime aint up anytime soon.
you`re a growing addiction i can`t deny
3:54 AM
Sunday, December 17, 2006
in my hands a legacy of memories
i can hear you say my name
i can almost see your smile
feel the warmth of your embrace
but there is nothing but silence now
around the one I loved
never thought this day would come so soon
we had no time to say goodbye
how can the world just carry on?
i feel so lost when you are not by my side
but there's nothing but silence now
around the one I loved
my world is tumbling down
its so hard to get through all these nights
my sweetlove, i do not want to bid you farewell
i miss walking home hand in hand after dinner at lor.5 with you
you`re a growing addiction i can`t deny
3:33 PM
fark blogger. one long entry just gone.
my mp3 died on me. i can jolly well bang my head against the wall.
argh!
summary of everything then.
fri met carol to shop for heels. i ended up with nothing.
in the night met up with ting, alv and his friends for some chill.
came home rather early. 430 am. haas.
sat met carol jh mei mei jie ying at bugis.
shopped ard and went for steamboat.
after dinner it was only me jh and carol left
3 of us just stick`d tgt the entire night.
it was madness. the weird and funny things we did. haas.
again! again! i want it again!
less than 6 hours of slp and im up again
haix. thou its hols, just couldnt have a good rest.
well, i wanna say a big thank you to the both of you.
thanks for consoling me, advicing me and cheering me up
if it wasnt for the both of you, these few weeks would have been worst.
thanks. (:
i miss staying out late and receive calls and msgs from you asking where am i and why im still out. i miss all these now. ):
you`re a growing addiction i can`t deny
3:13 PM
Thursday, December 14, 2006
tuesday night my lovelies gave me a pleasant surprise.
i was home enjoying my comp, hair all messed up, wearing my cock specs.
all of a sudden my sis shouted at me and asked me to open the door.
that stupid yinki covered the peephole. it was total blackness.
i screamed and ran away from the door. but after awhile i opened the door and i saw all 4 of them standing there with wanyi holding a cake.
its like omg!!! they came all the way down so late just to pass me the cake.
im like super touched la!!! thanks dearies.
last night was madness with my girls.
sher, aggy, wei hua, shi shi, jennifer, lu and drey.
it was total madness. thanks for taking care of me! (:
completed fbops. like finally.
it was such a nice dayy. great weather for chilling at home. but still i gotta go for tuition.
and guess what? just 2 stops before her place she called and cancelled.
its like seriously what the fark can!!! URGH!
i was pissed la but then again how pissed can i get? whatever then.
waited for 163 and bus`d home. roamed ard central a lil.
as im walking home from the bus stop, darkness engulf`d me.
all of a sudden i feel so lonely. i never knew having someone to walk home with is so nice.
i never knew that kinda feeling was simple and pure bliss.
now i know. but is it all too late?
i never knew i could feel this way. i never knew i could miss someone so badly till it hurts inside.
i miss waiting for lift and make funny faces at the cam and hear your laughter after that.
i miss you alot
you`re a growing addiction i can`t deny
11:52 PM
the angel vs the devil
this are my lovely group mates that spring on a surprise on me.
my only birthday present that is wrapped with a xmas wrapper.
i know alot of effort has been put in to make this possible. the cake and present.
thanks alot! (:
the supposedly bday cake from my loves
i love this 2 many many. hugs
my lovelies that almost gave me a heartattack.
that explains my messed up hair and specs.
my first cake w 9teen candles on it. (:
much love to this sweetheart of mine. (:
and yeah! im the rodeo queen!!! haas.
now. tell me that birthday wishes come true.
you`re a growing addiction i can`t deny
11:47 PM
Tuesday, December 12, 2006
holidays have started and i celebrate it by staying home the first day.
using the new ie thingy. not used to it. rather uncomfortable with it.
but heck. i`ll be fine after awhile.
new tuition assignment. great! (:
hopefully i'll be able to handle it when school starts.
and i wish that she`ll not be as mischievious. or else i`ll really die young.
haas.
income has stopped for awhile. really gotta work and save.
):
i`ll do it somehow.
well. its the festive month.
somehow i just love december thou i`ll go broke with xmas gifts and tonnes of msg`s.
but i just love the atmosphere.
i wanna walk down town and take pictures with you
i wanna spend xmas and nye with you
i wanna enjoy my holidays with you
all i want for kissmas is you. only you.
santa, i promise i`ll be good. pls allow my wish to come true k.
you`re a growing addiction i can`t deny
10:46 PM
yayness! accts is finally over. ((:
everything was well. or so i thought. at least i know how to do the questions.
that one hour was freezing cold in that room.
thank god im hot enough to allow my brain to function properly.
HAAS!
holidays are here. gonna embrace it! (:
met up with carol aft my paper at rp`s tcc.
super chill that place. i mean literally.
i was freezing my ass off la!
so waited till 8 plus went over to look for helen.
waited till she ends work and we went over geylang to makan.
it has been so damn freaking long. and well it was good.
more catch up to come! its gonna be a tradition soon.
each year end we`ll definitely meet up. LoL.
to sum it up. today`s a great day.
a huge load has been taken off my mind.
i smiled from my heart for the first time after so long.
i wish this will contd to go on.
its nice to be happy. but it is even better that im happy because of you! (:
tml i will wake up with a big smile on my face.
at least i hope that will happen.
you`re a growing addiction i can`t deny
3:19 AM
Monday, December 11, 2006
its getting late. i cant get to sleep.
cant really concentrate. there are tonnes of formulaes.
i could just die.
there is this uneasy feeling within me
its irritating me. i cant feel at ease.
damn it. really damn it. thank god paper`s at 1.
still some time in the morning to revise thru it.
one week ago everything came spiraling down on me.
im left with one huge pile of mess to deal with
tried so hard to deal it maturely ; i hope it works
after 7 days ; sorted out my thoughts
things are not as messy alr ; but my feelings still are
there are still uncertainties which im so afraid of facing
i really wish you were next to me to overcome all this
with you around things will be all so certain
i just need a hug to know all things will be fine
i really do miss you alot. i`ll do anything just to see you again.
you`re a growing addiction i can`t deny
3:07 AM
let me tell you a story of a girl.
this girl is an actress with wonderful skills
each morning she wakes up and put on a smile to face the world
she laughed at jokes ; she smiled at people
everybody thought she was strong ; happy
nobody knows that its a charade she plays each day
nobody ever know that in the lonely hours of the night
when she is all alone in her room
the mask is off, what`s left of her is emptyness ; loneliness and tears
she could never be strong again
she could never be happy again
all that she ever wanted vanished
she did not know how to treasure ; took it for granted
God punished her by taking it away
this lesson is too hard ; too much to bear
she finally knows her mistake and is willing to change
but will she ever has a second chance?
what do you think? does she deserve a second chance?
you`re a growing addiction i can`t deny
1:44 AM
ytd lunch`d with ting and chi. shopped ard.
its good to spend some time with old friends.
just talking and catching up.
wm came over and meet chi. so sweet.
glad to see her so happily in love.
home`d and then rested for awhile before meeting my girls.
met aggy and sher to study earlier on.
managed to study just a lil bit. thou i dun really have the mood to.
guess tonight not gonna slp.
i dun want tml to come. i fear what lies ahead of me.
the strong wall that i`ve built is falling apart
but will you be there to hold me when i fall?
you`re a growing addiction i can`t deny
1:39 AM
Friday, December 08, 2006
officially 9teen now. hate to see that. i love being 8teen!
whatever it is, it doesnt matter anymore. i`ll be 8teen every single year.
((:
i wanna thank everybody that made me feel loved and not forgotten on this special day.
those that celebrated for me for the past 2 days.
those that flooded my phone with msg`s. my phone just wont stop ringing.
those that left a testi on my friendster.
those that spent time w me on my bday.
those that will celebrate with me in the next few days.
and esp those that i did not expect any birthday greetings from.
(:
in no order of merit these are the people :
aggy, wan yi, sher, yinki, babear, ting ting, yiwei, mandy, jiam, chin, hou shun, xin yu, tong jue, jolene, vanessa, alyy, ray, andy, jashawn, deanne, wei hua, loretta, tinah, yvonne, xl, rachel, hui min, shu yi, enli, audrey, grace, rinita, sophia, timo, pohsan, xiu mei, wilson, lyonie, kenneth, carol, jin hai, and you. (:
thanks for all the love. <3
wed night was hay mee at kim seng plaza. it was good.
after that slack ard ; waiting for 12 to come
when clock strikes 12 ; i have my birthday cake birthday song and birthday pressie!
thanks alot. really.
you know who you are. thanks for putting in all the effort to bring a smile to my face.
the msg that i`ve been wishing for came. really glad.
now all i wish for is to get the reply that i`ve been wanting to get.
praying with all i have, all i`ve got.
birthday wishes come true. dont they?
you know who you are and i hope that you read this somehow.
i really appreciate that you cared to msg me on my birthday alot. ((:
and i hope that you will make my wish come true.
you`re a growing addiction i can`t deny
3:02 PM
Thursday, December 07, 2006
fac and lodge project and presentation down
fbops presentation down
outstanding torture :
fbops report
acctgs mid sem test
jap project proposal
mice project 2
all this to be done b4 the new year is here. woah! what a great way to end 2006.
):
presentations went well. hope all is well.
my group mates were such sweethearts. they celebrated my bday for me.
in the midst of preparing for presentation, xl and loretta came into the room with a cake and they sang happy birthday to me. omg. i was super shock la! i was super touched too. thanks alot. (:
you`re a growing addiction i can`t deny
2:08 AM
Wednesday, December 06, 2006
vonda shepard`s song somehow kept repeating on my playlist.
i have no idea why.
guess my playlist can sense my mood and cater itself to suit me.
funny hur.
another night lack of slp. and yeah! tml im presenting with a super sexy voice.
just hope that i dun faint midway. haas.
you`re a growing addiction i can`t deny
2:05 AM
Tuesday, December 05, 2006
what can be worse than me now?
block`d nose. sore throat. fever. headache.
and well well, unfinished project ppt slides that is due tml.
all i want is just a good rest. all i want is for tml to be over.
all projects will be done. and then i can just start to prepare for acctgs paper.
it sucks to be sick and still have work to be done.
my brain is seriously overworked.
been thinking a tad too much lately.
even taking painkillers the headache still wun go. fark xia.
fark life. fark sickness. fark projects.
life sucks. period!
you`re a growing addiction i can`t deny
11:38 PM
i miss talking to you. i miss msging you. i miss msn-ing with you. i miss holding hands with you. i miss you hugging me. i miss those lovely kisses of yours. i miss snuggling next to you in the movies. i miss you pushing my hair away from my face. i miss walking home with you. i miss sitting at the playground with you. i miss looking forward to weekends. i miss sitting at esplanade with you. i miss those times at the lift when both of us are reluctant to go. i miss waiting for you after work. i miss dinners with you. i miss you teasing me. there are just so much more that i miss. but most of all. i really miss you alot.
you`re a growing addiction i can`t deny
11:56 AM
as the sky turns dark
loneliness creep into her soul
insecurities eating her up alive
pushed to the end of her world
nowhere to run ; nowhere to hide
in that corner, her tears flowed
down on her knees praying for a miracle
i know. i aint a good poet.
but somehow inspiration always strikes when im apparently not feeling too good.
life. such an irony.
you`re a growing addiction i can`t deny
12:06 AM
Monday, December 04, 2006
madness. ultimate project madness.
presentations are crazy. powerpoint slides ; speeches
each group trying to outshine the other
its crazy!
esp fm presentation. there are just TOO much to be done.
how to finish in 20 mins? that`s pure madness!
rushing thru it now.
fbo project not really done yet.
we are all so fried! life really sucks just at this moment.
and i really mean it.
saw audd in school today. the instance she saw me she wished me happy birthday.
i din see that coming. and well, i was glad that she remembers and a big part of me aint exactly looking forward to it.
how to be happy at all? im sorry. it is a real challenge to me now.
if you see me smiling ; that`s a bonus for you alr.
be grateful k.
i guess my birthday wish is simple. i just want to be happy again.
i just want to celebrate it with my love one. the one and only one.
maybe that`s too much to ask for too.
you`re a growing addiction i can`t deny
11:57 PM
lost in this pool of tears
pain overwhelmed bliss
everything`s swirling
i feel like im on a full speed never ending carousel
on the way back from dinner tonight
the wind that beat against my face my hair
thou it was super chilly, it felt nice
everything was flying away with the wind
but when the bike stop`d, im back to reality
everything came rushing back to my head
this sucks alot. and its really alot with a capital a.
i need to bleed to know im alive
you`re a growing addiction i can`t deny
2:17 AM
Saturday, December 02, 2006
skipped school for 2 days in a row.
din felt like gg to school and face all the people.
i hate crowds all of a sudden.
just want to be alone.
stayed home and did my project. guess when you want to get something off your mind, you have the drive to do something. and well, im glad that finally there`s some motivation for my project.
finally done with everything. tml morning gonna go back to tp and collate everything.
there are so much uncertainties before me
there are so much fear within me
i do not know why is my body shivering
i do not know why those tears are flowing
could there be someone who could save me from my sufferings
quit playing games with my mind
quit playing games with my heart
you may not know, but you`re torturing me
im fading away slowly, i do not want to be where i am now
these days smiling is such a chore
tears flow with every breath i take
i want to wake up from this nightmare
you`re a growing addiction i can`t deny
12:30 AM
