Sunday, April 27, 2008
yipee dee doo!
i had an excellent weekend minus the pmsy moments.
thurs night was over at spin as its a reunion w the F.F
haas.
slack`d ard and plenty of laughter and just watching time pass by
i miss those days when we`ll frequent spin almost nightly
fri was work and circuit road thereafter to wait for my silly boy to end work
we got a ride home and it was tv time and major slacking before we finally wash up and get ready for bed
hehs. as usual i got into hibernating mood as soon as i hit the sack thou i really wanted to finish watching the show on his lappy
sat woke up and it took him forever before we could finally step out of his place
i was really fuming. dont understand why also.
and so it was over to bugis to get my stuff before poping over to all in for drinks and the soccer match
YEAH! CHELSEA`S THE BOMB! ((:
after much waiting and bp ; finally made it over to amk
and yesh! it was mj time ; the entire night till 6 in the morning
when the clock strikes 6 ; cabbed back to his place
forced him to shower before turning in. hehs.
had a good rest till this afternoon. woke up to his alarm to watch the movie that i wanted
(:
after the show ; sorted out his internet banking changed and its home for me while he`s off to work
i totally hate sundays cause i gotta be away from him for another 5 days before seeing him again
as long as he`s next to me nothing else matters
yes i sure do feel this way. (:
he makes me happy and i love the feeling
and he sure does over love me.
im real lucky.
so fark the thoughts i had as of below.
you`re a growing addiction i can`t deny
8:41 PM
seven months aint a long time
but its more than enough to bring me a lifetime worth of beautiful memories
soon you`ll be no longer 10 mins away
you`ll no longer be near
good or bad i have no idea
but i guess being further away from me could be able to prevent me from falling into temptations
but somehow i`ll always wish that you`ll be always near me
inside me is all messed up
my thoughts are on a carousel that never stops
each time i move forward i cant help but stop and turn back once awhile
there are so many questions within me that i wish it could be answered
but i guess you`ll never give me answers to that
partly cause i`ll never know how to ask or bring it up
partly cause i know you`ll never answer them ever
i`ve been seeing a lil more things than i should
hence i`ve been thinking a lil more than i should
i hope it aint the way it is
i sincerely hope it isnt
whatever it is. i somehow detest MICs.
i love him but i`ll never love him the way i love you
i will always love you and a part of me will always belong to you
readers, pls dont start questioning me abt this entry
i just need a lil space to rant and a lil more time to totally sort out myself
you`re a growing addiction i can`t deny
7:59 PM
Tuesday, April 22, 2008
today`s bus 8 made me mad. it travelled at snail`s pace.
and yes im late because of that.
seriously. the bus that was aft mine even moved faster than my bus.
cant believe it. fwah!!!
went down to town and met belly darling for dinner.
had a great time catching up
seriously i cant believe that my life is filled w dramas and more dramas
anyway when it was near 10 we left.
and as i was travelling home alone i got all emo once again.
listening to songs that were playing right thru my thoughts
sitting down at the playground stoning / thinking / inhaling
sometimes i just hate myself.
you`re a growing addiction i can`t deny
11:18 PM
Sunday, April 20, 2008
fri night was over at wei`s place aft work as i have to be at work 0700 the next day.
in the end too tired cant wake up. was abt 15 mins late. hehs.
now i know the trick. that`s what i`ll do the next time. (:
and so sat aft work waited for him, he came to pick me up
travelled back to my place tgt while i showered and have a change and pack another overnight bag.
tot he was feeling unwell and it would be another day at home watching tv.
however aft his lunch he has became alive!
so travelled dwn to dhoby and went over to cathay and caught the 1830 three kingdoms.
quite a nice movie! shall wait till next week till we could have time to watch the forbiden kingdom. its sold out ridiculously soon! haas.
aft show we 2 persuaded carol to come out for drinks.
ended up another weekend night at all in drinking martell. lolx.
i do hope that she is feeling much better now.
as she talk to me last night i got freaking mad!
mad at jh for treating her like that. mad at myself for not being able to do anything at all. i felt helpless and useless. argh!
i just hope that in a week`s time everything would turn out fine. (:
home when it was 3 plus. and now its another aimless sunday at his place.
last night i was mad at myself once again for thinking abt the previous him.
i dont know why! the thoughts just came so naturally that it almost killed me.
time. time. time. i need plenty of time and determination to cross this barrier in my life.
and i know he will definitely be here to hold on to me.
you`re a growing addiction i can`t deny
4:11 PM
Thursday, April 17, 2008
one of these days maybe your magic won't affect me
and your kiss won't make me weak
but no one in this world knows me the way you know me
so you'll probably always have a spell on me..
strolling past the playground everynight
memories flood back
the only way i could ever have you in my life once again is through the happy moments we shared before
Together in all these memories
I see your smile
All the memories I hold dear
Darling you know I love you till the end of time
you`re a growing addiction i can`t deny
12:35 AM
Wednesday, April 16, 2008
its a wonderful wednesday for me! (:
i had a pleasant surprise this morning on my way to work.
was on 23 and talking to my silly boy and the moment it turned into bedok he board the bus.
my heart almost stop`d. when i heard abt the entire story that made it happen`d i cant stop grinning from ear to ear.
thou it was just <30 min w my silly boy its enough to keep me happy for the day
the thought and effort he put in really make me feel so bliss
(:
actually i guess im really easily contented
as long as there`s love and attention its more than enough to make me happy.
other aspect will be a bonus for me.
haas!
oh yes! its midweek and i cant wait for saturday to come! ((:
you`re a growing addiction i can`t deny
11:28 PM
my happy pill! (:
you`re a growing addiction i can`t deny
12:57 AM
im still too tired to have a detailed entry.
just the gist of my life these days.
it is work on most days and despite the distance ; im actually loving the job
they are just adorable to the max and they really lift my spirit each time im at work
(:
at times things they do really crack my up and the way they greet me each morning makes me really happy.
after work it would be either dinner dates or back home.
and i`ll turn in at the usual wee hours.
weekends would be spent with my silly boy. most of the time i`ll be over at his place.
watching tv. haas. my place have no tv to watch at all. that`s what sis would always comment.
simple saturdays w him next to me would be all that im looking forward to every single week.
as long as i have him im more than content
thou last fri night was a lil upsetting for me. but i just have to learn to deal w it.
i sincerly hope that there wont be another time.
or else....
last week aft the dramatic chapter of my life i really understand the extent of his love towards me. and im really one lucky woman.
i`ll cherish this second chance and i`ll never hurt / disappoint you in that manner ever again
this i promise you.
you do not deserve anything like that at all.
i still feel guilty and regret my actions. i really wish i could turn back time.
whatever has happened has happened and all i can do now is to be a ggf to him.
(:
by the way that silly boy is training me to be his huang lian po can.
faints.
you`re a growing addiction i can`t deny
12:23 AM
Monday, April 07, 2008
guess im not gonna blog abt my trip
no photos nothing. perhaps it will arrive way overdue.
if you have the patience, then wait.
guess i`ve just made the biggest mistake in my life
dont ask what happen dont ask how am i
im just gonna be away for awhile
i wish i have a time machine to turn back time
that`s how i feel now
other than that i hate myself.
simply hate myself. period.
you`re a growing addiction i can`t deny
6:03 AM
