Friday, September 28, 2007
finally home early for one night. caught the near 7pm bus and travelled home. as i missed the direct bus i got down at near the city exchange (interchange) and walk`d home. i was rather worried at first as it was late and its my first time walking ard and im alone.
and thank god, im good with directions and i found my way home. (:
sat somewhere near home, inhale`d some niccotine and just let my mind wander before walking back home. and i hate to admit this. you are on my mind.
i guess i just cant get you off my mind no matter how hard i try.
been using lappy rather often as i need to type my ejournal and i found myself wandering around and looking thru pictures.
and pictures of you of us of those days just never fail to bring a smile to my face and leave a bittersweet feeling in my heart.
i really do miss you, the way you make me smile, the way you make my heart skip a beat the way you make me mad, the way you make me feel like you still care and the way you love me.
and yes i miss all the love we shared.
coming online and seeing you ard is like a sign and to have you actually replying makes me happier than anything on earth! but my connection has to fail me. ):
so next time then. (:
im happy enough alr. (:
anyway came online chatted with yinki andy and mei. happy happy. my usual 3 that i`ll chat with. happy happy. am happily replying emails now. like finally has the time. and after which i would have to get back to my report. argh.
by the way today i made nasi lemak for staff dinner tonight and it wasnt a disaster! mwahaahaa. so i do have some talent in cooking. (:
sudden craving for donuts. k. im random. whatever.
back to kitchen tml.
another entry soon. much love and misses.
and to that special one out there i hope you know i still love you.
you`re a growing addiction i can`t deny
12:11 AM
Wednesday, September 26, 2007
great! this week im gonna be a robot as there`s no off day for me! woohoo!
ok la. think on the bright side im making money but then i want to spend some time with myself! and i need time to do my ejournal. its not done yet. bugger.
and its such a great time of the month to be working all week long. im in pain la! ):
hope the medicine really helps. sigh
argh! and i have no time to reply all the emails. i only have time to read it and just go off.
im starting work at 2 today and i gotta leave early to buy some stuffs and tonight im gonna be working in the kitchen preparing for a function that is for 100 pax. madness i tell you. i dont want to get shouted by the chefs. hehs. cross my fingers.
god. i miss everybody back home. and i just want more timeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee.
you`re a growing addiction i can`t deny
11:33 AM
Every time I try to leave something keeps pulling me back
Telling me I need you in my life
Every time I try to go, something keeps telling me that
Everything gon be all right
It was meant to be, you were meant for me
So that means we gotta make it work
GAWD! it just kinda sucks to have this feeling all the time. i cant believe im so hung up over you. why!? i want to move on. but.... i cant and i dont want to. argh.
i tot that by being over here things will be easier, but WRONG!
it makes me think of you more as i have more time to myself to think abt stupid things! ARRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRR! i think i hate myself.
boy, i know that no matter what things turn out to be, i will always love you.
this is a fact i cant deny. you will always have the special place in my heart.
you`re a growing addiction i can`t deny
11:29 AM
Thursday, September 20, 2007
this is the dinner setting for fine dinning. if i`ve the time i shall take some pics of the cafe/bar. its pretty nice too. (:
this is how the sun set looks from the top of the hill. pretty aint it. im just getting better and better with photography. hehs.
and i realised that no matter what i do, how hard i try. you`re still a part of me not apart from me. good or bad? -shrugs-
and that`s ME! on the bus to work. (:
and i better get out of the house or else i will be stuck at home the whole day on my off day. hehs. take care my loves.
you`re a growing addiction i can`t deny
3:12 PM
cool. it has beed a week since my arrival.
am fitting in quite well i guess. the ppl in the restaurant is really nice and yes i`ve gotten my first week pay. happy happy.
and today is my off day. hehs. am all alone at home now.
did quite a fair bit of household chores am now waiting for the clothes to be done so i could put it out to sun and then off i`ll go.
will be a loner for the day. will be shopping around by myself. ):
shall be getting more of the neccessities. (:
doubt i`ll be getting clothes or what nots as i`ll be working most of the time and i have no time to wear my own clothes. hehs.
so fast half of the day is gone and i`ll be getting my ass back to the kitchen tml.
):
sad sad life. hopefully next week my schedule will be better and i`ll be able to learn more stuff. (:
and that i`ll be taking a bus to work from now on since my shift starts at 930 and grace only has to be at work at 10 plus.
i tell you the weather is really so cold till when i breathe or talk outside the restaurant i`ll often see smoke coming out. so movie like. its not even winter its freaking spring! lolx.
whatever la. shall just keep myself warm then. hee.
aiights. enough of crap here. shall post some pics later.
you`re a growing addiction i can`t deny
1:44 PM
Sunday, September 16, 2007
im either getting more adapted to the weather or the weather is beginning to be warmer. but whatever it is, im still feeling cold. ALWAYS. haas.
throughout the weekends there were a couple of changes
now i have a room all to myself and i still cant use the internet access as and when i like. so just gotta bear with it. anyway i thik when i really start to work i wont have time to come online often too. so just come online once a week. to check mails and blog and just chat with whoever is online.
good to chat a lil with aggy and carol today. (: feels good. (:
miss those girls of mine.
anyway the webcam that aggy gave aint really working. so no webcam for 5 months. and its just an extra weight in my luggage. haas.
tml im gonna start in the kitchen and i hope all goes well. hope that no chefs will start to shout at me. and the weather`s so cold that my skin is starting to flake.
so went out and bought some moisturiser. hope it helps.
anyway this is a pic of the garden..
you`re a growing addiction i can`t deny
7:23 PM
Friday, September 14, 2007
quick update. been workin almost 10 hours a day for the past 3 days. and tml will be helping out for a wedding function. so.. hope it goes well.
it has been freezing here. i really cant take the cold. and yes i hope i`ll get use to it soon.
next week i`ll be starting out in the kitchen hope it all go well. (:
as im not staying alone. cant really stay online till late. so its now 1140 over here and she who has the connection is like gg to slp and she cant slp when the router is on and everything. so i gotta log off soon. a proper one soon i promise. maybe on sunday or so. (:
take care you all. i miss you loads!
you`re a growing addiction i can`t deny
7:17 PM
Tuesday, September 11, 2007
its 4 in the morning and im all alone at sydney airport waiting for my next flight.
sipping a cuppa hot choc as im typing this entry.
firstly i would like to say a very very big thank you too all my friends that came or met up with me before i left. i really feel so loved and blessed with you guys in my life. thanks for all the gifts and rest assured that they will be well cherish`d by me in NZ and i`ll definitely miss you guys v much.
those that came were, not in order of merit, aggy sher drey lu helen carol and baby jayden. thanks a million for coming. (:
everything was well, trying so hard not to think about anything and be positive about everything until granny started to cry after i said my final goodbye before i enter the departure hall. and well everybody started to get all emo. i did manage to control my tears but when i see my sis it just disobeyed and everything came tumbling down. cant believe how stupid i look with a nose as red as rudolph.
my baby sis, i`ll miss you so goddamn much. i hope you will take good care of yourself and study hard for your papers that are due in a month`s time. pls do not make me worry and you`re the one person that is at the top of my list that i`ll miss everyday. esp your nonsense.
anyway the flight from sing to sydney was great as i had 3 seats to myself and i almost laid down completely to sleep. however i just took a short nap and i enjoyed 3 movies. (:
finally get to watch shrek 3. haas. still rmb how aggy showed disdain when i said i wanted to watch it. hehs. i`ll miss that dear girl of mine. hope that the webcam you gave it to me would be of use!
and yes, thou you wont get to see this but mr andy fu thanks for the late night prata and milo dino. really appreciate it. and the called you made to me when i was on board made me feel a lil more at ease. your voice gave me much encouragement and assurance. (: i`ll miss you more than you ever know. haas.
and well to all, i really do love you guys and thanks for everything. promise to write to you when im in NZ.
you`re a growing addiction i can`t deny
4:07 AM
Sunday, September 09, 2007
finally all zip`d up. dun want to think of the excess weight.
im just gonna whine and beg them tml. lolx.
this morning it dawn on me that it will be another 5 months before i could wake up on my bed
i`ll seriously miss home and suddenly i just feel like staying in spore
so that i could be near my daddy and sis and i could meet up with my girls whenever possible.
ARGH!
ok, priscilla its not like you`re not gonna be back
5 months will be over soon. be strong.
(:
anyway today was a busy day.
met up with ting tc and wm at tpy`s crystal jade
had a lovely meal and thanks for it.
when im back it will be my turn. (:
and yes the jacket will keep me warm there. thanks for the love.
really appreciate it. (:
after that we went our separate ways.
i then train`d dwn to novena and meet tc.
had tea at the hk cafe
ate my har gow and some other dim sum that i doubt i`ll have it in NZ
and we talk`d a whole load
really enjoy the time we had
still rmb the day we met (:
james drop`d by to pass me my mum`s bday pressie
and when it was abt 6 we left and went home
came home change`d and had dinner
daddy cook`d my favorito tomato fishy, mushroom soup and the chicken thigh
omg. i would have enjoy`d dinner if i din eat so much earlier on
haas.
aft dinner was over at tpy central and it was home with the final packing
now its the hand luggage left. (:
happy happy only.
the msg that came in the afternoon brought a smile to my face
and ting even said i look so happy texting
the way you said lets go now when i said im craving for milo dino made me smile
i think i`ll really miss you when im gone
oh whatever. enjoy my last night in spore pris.
you`re a growing addiction i can`t deny
11:58 PM
it felt good to see you today, thou it was just a split moment.
the texts aft that made me smile.
i love the way how i feel with you ard
the way you make me smile the way you make me feel that this whole world is so safe as long as i have you next to me the way you make me flustered with the way you look at me the way you treat me so gentle yet so violent
i just could not erase that frame when you pick out the fray pieces of tissue on my face
that one touch the close proximity
it made my heart skipped a beat
sometimes i wonder if its a mutual feeling.
even so, i guess you`ll never take that risk
maybe i just know you a lil tad too well
i just gotta let it stop before the idea contd to toy ard my mind
i cant afford it.
finally packing is 90% done.
and hell yeah its freaking heavy. ):
gross. 2 more days and i`ll be gone from this familiar cosy place
moving into the cold strange place with only myself to lean on to.
an entire different course of life awaits me
and yes i think i`ll miss you very much there.
and i have no idea which you im referring to.
guess im just another confuse individual.
argh!
tml shall be a busy day with lunch with tc ting and wm
tea with the other tc
dinner with daddy and my favourito dishes
and the final packing.
(:
you`re a growing addiction i can`t deny
2:48 AM
Saturday, September 08, 2007
indeed time flies..
i first knew you when i was in poly first year
now im almost graduating
you have always been there for me, joy and sorrow
i know i can always turn to you and lean on you
i know you dote on me, care for me alot
the bro-sis r.s
sometimes i wonder if what i felt was real if what my friends tell me is real
sometimes i wonder if my having second thoughts is right
sometimes i wonder if me being jealous is correct
sometimes i wonder if things would just have a change in direction
or remain where it is
because friendship always last longer than relationship.
argh. im blabbering. im tired. i need to slp.
you`re a growing addiction i can`t deny
5:07 AM
wed was fun being out of town w my girls.
ate shop`d cut hair and yes i`ve finally watched ratatouelle.
or however you spell it.
back in sing about 8 but was held up at the customs.
went dwn to town met helen and carol for awhile before joining my girls in the clubs once again.
maneka came over after her work for just a short while.
last wed was much more fun compared to this week.
i was practically being moshed and i just wanted to DIE
nobody wanted to go mambo jambo with me and im v upset.
):
left, prata`d and maneka stayed over my place.
(:
thurs woke up prepared and left my place.
acc her to work before making andy angry and in the end i went over to his place and meet him.
my god. that bugger made me walk`d one big round
waited for him to get ready and went out.
went over to this pub, drink eat playgames slack smoke
it was hillarious at one point
when it was almost time we left and he gave me a ride over to selegie
had supper with maneka and she came over my place once again
(:
this morning awoke by aunty grace`s phone
went back to slp answered 3 more calls before i actually want to get outta my bed
prepared and went dwn to town and meet alyy.
i had so much fun with her.
ying joined us in the evening and i really enjoyed myself with the 2 of them
thank you my dear. esp for the lovely pic and msg.(:
bought a whole load of stuff and now im super xianz.
cause there`s so much to pack. im halfway there alr. jus need to squeeze out more space for my stuffs. haas.
hopefully this weekend will be a blast! (:
you`re a growing addiction i can`t deny
4:22 AM
Tuesday, September 04, 2007
tick tock tick tock. time`s running out.
i could feel the pressure when im left with no time.
argh.
weekend was spent with the mum shopping for some to buy items
met maneka in the night for some chillax.
only got home in the morning 7am and i really hate this kinda lifestyle.
argh.
ytd went to collect my ticket and met the rascal and gang for dinner at cityhall area.
ended up at cartel and BK thereafter for slacks.
its nice to hang out with them thou mr chow does gets on my nerve every single time
but still they make me smile. (:
went for work this morning super reluctantly came home to wait for chin to be ready to meet me. so went over to bishan to meet her for dinner thou i din really eat.
that sweetheart along with mandy were so sweet. they made me a farewell gift.
yes i`ll bring it along with me to NZ. no worries. (:
and yes i manage to him after that.
he came over to bishan and pick me up and sent me home
got the stuff and like FINALLY pass`d to him.
went over to the usual and just chill there
im glad you know that`s how i love to chill with you around
the heartwrenching moment ; swallow`d it all
plaster`d a smile and yes, i wish i could be strong enough to say that it`ll be our last meeting.
simple gestures tell me alot. and it hurts to know.
you told me to be myself, to be free
not knowing that you`re the one who could set me free.
i`ll always be here for you, this i promise you.
the way the smell lingers ; dilu
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11:56 PM
Monday, September 03, 2007
i wonder if you rmb this night cause it will take an entire lifetime for me to forget.
i love the feeling of being in your arms.
i miss you my darling boy.
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12:53 AM
i`ll be leaving in a week`s time and you should know i would really love to meet you
i`ll give up anything and everything just to spend a couple of hours with you
it will take me another 5 more months before i could sms you and ask when you`re free
it will be nice of you if you could just spare me the day
i hope you can understand.
pls tell me that it is still a mutual feeling and im not being sucha fool.
urgh.
sometimes i just freaking hate myself.
anywya i feel that time is moving way too fast. im left with only a week with so much to do.
i need to meet up with so many ppl and pack all my stuff and buy all the necessary stuff for the trip too. it just sucks. hate life.
):
darling boy, i hate you but i love you
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12:32 AM
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