Tuesday, July 18, 2006
stress stress stress. CRSPA almost done.
marketing haven touch on yet. im so dead.
report out by friday. that`s fine with me.
if bad peer appraisal i DIE! literally DIE!
=(
was super late for acctg today cause apparently 142 decides to go missing for 30 freaking mins.
anyway wasnt really paying much attention. din have lect 10 with me.
but somehow i know what`s gg on.
got your msg that says you are starting work tml.
a rush of mixed feelings. i dunno what to do with it.
glad that you will be working ; got something to do with the time
but that also means that we will have lesser time tgt
maybe even no time for certain stuffs like breakfast ; talks at playground ; occasional meetings
and when you work you will not msg me as often too
and part of me is really scared that history will repeat itself again.
what if the moment you have work ; i disappear in your life?
gosh. i gotta deal with all this again.
gotta understand he has to work and got not much time for me
i promise i will be understanding k
i wanna be an understanding gf.
whatever la. nonsensical stuffs running thru my head again.
im trying v hard to fight it and stay positive. =/
i hope i can do it.
came home after school ; met him for a lil while.
just a lil talk ; a lil walk
short meetings like this is enough. but somehow i want more.
whatever la. back to projects alr la. no time to listen to my inner self anymore.
i will stay strong because of you. because i love you.
you`re a growing addiction i can`t deny
11:36 PM
