Thursday, November 30, 2006
been quite awhile since i updated.
too much had happen for me to let you all know in a couple of words.
it`s madness.
to those who were really worried abt me.
no worries ya. i`ll be fine.
at times im really at a lost. i dunno what to do.
dunno where to go.
its like im stuck in the middle.
if im to take a step back ; it`ll not be what i want
if im to take a step forward ; things might not turn out to be the way i wanted.
and there`s no way that i`ll stay where i am.
it was really a trying period for me.
i hate to be vulnerable and emotional.
but somehow that`s who i am.
im glad there are ppl who i can turn to. talking to you definitely makes me feel better.
its better than bottling up every single thing inside.
i dunno since when i started to keep things to myself.
i din want to bother nobody. i din want them to worry abt me.
maybe that`s why. but god has his amazing way of letting me know that i have friends that care.
after so long. im still unsure of the situation now.
im still lost in this senseless situation.
but i promise myself i`ll be strong.
darling
i trusted you enough to give you my hand to hold.
i struggeld so much to trust you will not break my heart.
and i hope that i did not win that war in vain.
show me that i could still trust that sentence you said.
"this time the ending will be different"
i need to know this love is for sure.
you`re a growing addiction i can`t deny
4:08 PM
