Tuesday, October 23, 2007
GREAT! finally a day off. a well deserved day off. im so gonna slack at home.
i have been working way too much i really cant take it anymore. average 10 hours a day and with only a day or none day off. its really too much for me to bear.
yes, the people here are v nice and all. i do enjoy working with them but still there's a limit to what they want me to do. there is a fine line between my job and taking advantage of me. yes, its part of my training programme my job to do certain thing but the expectations and tasks you guys are giving me is definitely more than i can bear.
once again im given a double roster with foh and kitchen. and im supposed to have no off days this week. but i told grace that i cant do it and i need time off to be with myself and start on my e-journal. they expect me to work at both dept on the same day clocking in up to 13 hours a day. its totally madness can. i mean hello! im freaking human too im not superwoman ok! you are only thinking abt yourself and not sparing a thought for me. yes, grace told me that i can talk to them and work things out and not to be too upset over it, but how to say? just dont feel too good abt it. i've been toying with the 5 days mc allowance idea. hmm... what say you? haas.
sigh.. and it doesnt help that one of my fav person with the restaurant is leaving in a week's time. im pretty upset abt that too. nobody to talk to and gossip with anymore. thou she is an older lady, she has this motherly feeling and she is like a friend to me. i will definitely miss her when she's not ard. ):
right.. last monday was staff outing and it was fun. and its nice when eddie gave up his spot at go-karting and let me have a go. he told someone that its my time in NZ and i should have fun. such a sweetie hur. i really appreciate it thou i hurt my rib during the game and i really had a feel of drifting. its so shiok and scary at the same time and i definitely want to get a license when im back. hehs.
and on friday it was total madness. both restaurant and cafe was so bloody busy. i was floating here and there. trying to help dave. everybody was feeling like shit that night. one of the kitchen hand din turn up and with all the dishes pilling up its like crazy. and dear dave was so freaking agitated with no kitchen hand and his urgent need with the pans, so i had no choice but to do it. right? but at the end of the night, when i was really feeling upset and everything he did try to cheer me up and he gave me a comforting hug. and well it definitely made me feel better. (: at least i know there`s someone who cares. cause he`s in the same boat as me. i really enjoy the way he makes me smile. (:
now i just have to sort out my this week schedule to be happy abt it. i dun mind helping out in the kitchen but i dont want them to take advantage of me. i mean its my own will to help them out what right? its not a MUST. so pls, farking respect me ok. argh!
pls pardon all my rantings. just need a space to let all out. i definitely miss singapore and my girls. 13 more weeks. just bear with it pris!
you`re a growing addiction i can`t deny
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