Monday, November 05, 2007
tralallala. gg to work in an hour's time. so dreading it. esp aft what happen last night. it sucks.
it was like my long awaited day off after putting in at least 10 hours a day at work and she called up at 6pm expecting me to go to work at 7pm. how possible is that?
somemore i was hungry like mad, so of course i said no. and guess what happen? i was "black listed" as having bad attitude. like wtf la.
if you can do your roster properly then dun expect others to clear up your mess. right?
argh. whatever la. ***ch.
seriously i just gotta stop cutting myself and stop burning myself and stop getting unknown bruises all over my body.
but i just cant seem to be more careful in the kitchen no matter how careful i try to be. i`ll still get hurt. ):
and it will just remind me how he used to ask me to be careful on monday mornings when im gg for culinary classes. those were the days. and i really miss them. ):
work is just the same. and yes just 3 more months and if everything goes well, yinki sweets will be here with me for the last week and we would return to singapore tgt! so happy and excited abt it. the other day when i receive the msg it just totally made my day! (:
another thing to note, i have to stop whatever im feeling now. noway am i supposed to get involve with a married man. mwahahaha. sounds so exagerrated hur. he is just a year older than me and i do kinda like him. the way he makes me smile and joke with me and the nonsense that we do in the kitchen. esp with manfred ard. so fun! ahha.
the close proximity when we were peeling potatoes in that tiny hot corner.
the way he tried to splash water on me the way he sings stupid songs
the way he said see ya later
the intensity in his eyes when he looks at me which just make me blush silly.
GAWD. all this just gotta stop. maybe it will be better when im out of the kitchen and at foh.
we shall see ya.
on the other hand, i just miss him so much. almost every night i dream of you, dreaming that you're so close to me. and i wish that you do miss me just a lil bit. that's all i ask for. i wish to see you when im back in singapore. cause it seems like i just cant walk away aft all that happened.
whatever la, im just a confused girl now. ):
you`re a growing addiction i can`t deny
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