"the more you fight waiting ; the more waiting you will have to fight"
pre-see-la. 071287. emotional stubborn sagittarius. adores strawberries chocolates, donuts, big screen movies. cherish`s my family and girls. and i think i confuse my feelings with the truth.
Thursday, December 20, 2007
and so after 4 days away from the restaurant im really damn nua to go to work later. thou we`ll be having a staff xmas party later i still dont feel like gg to work. how i wish everyday i could just stay home and do things that i want at my own time. hahha. that`s my wishful thinking, i know. but heck la. just another 35 days, just bear with it. within the 35 days i am gonna have 3 days off for the time being. so another 32 days. mwahahhahhahha. happy till can fly alr! (:
and yes im thinking how to put everything into my luggage and not be overweight. haas. shall figure a strategy soon. sitll have 35 days to do so. mwahhaha. OH! good news! if all go well, im able to do something that i really wanted to all my life.. SURF! yes! surfing! there would be no way i could do that in singapore. so.. i pray and i hope and i cross my fingers that all go well. (:
last night had a lil chat before i went to bed. and its always nice to hear your voice. thou at times you make me worry like shit but you will still have your way to make me laugh. thank you. when im back you better bring me all ard singapore ok! just like you promised. (:
last but not least.. him. yes, the one and only him. after all these while. 4 months being away from singapore. 4 months of not being able to msg you and disturb you. 4 months of not being able to meet you occassionally. i really miss you and im afraid that you might forget abt me. and all i can rmb the last time i met you before i leave singapore is the way you lean over and give me the kiss on my forehead and told me to take care and be happy. how could i ever be happy without you?! this is something that i`ll never understand. no matter how happy i seem, i`ll never be complete without you. and this is true. i thought i could use this time to move on. i thought i could be strong. but time has proved me wrong. im not as strong as i thought i am. and thou im moving on slowly, somehow im still holding on. pls dont be angry with me, im alr angry with myself.
all of a sudden the other day, i rmb`d how it was on our first date. do you still rmb? just thinking of it bring a smile to my face. that long walk home... i would give anything just to have another long walk home with you.. mydarlingboy,iwishwecouldstartoveragain.